It's kind of funny how much our own thoughts hurt. If someone said the things we think to us, then they would matter not. But they come from inside. There's always a doubt if the thoughts are ego dystonic or not. That's a five dollar word-- it means, do we actually want the thoughts? I find that it is very difficult to distinguish. That is one of my anguishes. I hope your anguishes can be fixed.
A while ago, I heard someone online say that there was no value in struggle. I cannot express how much I disagree. How else will we learn but by struggling? No one came out of the womb knowing to read. No one has ever not had a time where they misread a word. No one knew how to ride a bike, or write, or throw a ball, without first trying-- and failing. But why, then, do we seem so averse to fail? It is a matter of pride. And this infernal pride is the source of many problems. It would be so much easier without it. I'm afraid it cannot be done away with.